Thursday, October 25, 2007
*this post was extremely diffcult for me to write,so if my words don't make much sense i apologize**this post has 3 parts**
"It's the last day of school"
only then it hit me.
it was the last official day of school
those were the words JiaLing,told me on the way to the canteen.
i was like
kena stunned?seriously,i just don't feel like its the end of the year i feel like its only July.
i have'nt learnt enough.
i haven't got enough fun.
somehow this year was like on >> aka fast forward.
i don't know what I'm feeling seriously.
saddened?
happiness?
disappointment?
maybe i feel all of the above\
that seriously upsets me.
GAWD,
I'm hoping the waterworks are not going to give way on me.
I'm going to miss them like hell OK?
you seniors,juniors or whom ever you are.
probably going"My Gawd,this girl is so the stewpid its not like she's dying or whateve shits"
but maybe you just don't get it.
2 years with these fabu girls&guys
who can leave without at least feeling a pang of sadness?
boos.
i HATE this.
HATE it.
so many things have not been answered
so many things not questioned.
this does not even come close to fair.
FUCK EM.
to better brighter news.
i shall tell you all bout my upsy-daisy day.
WOOOOOO
the damn G-string school seriously cheated us!
we were told they would be LJ(don't think dirty!)
but today was cancelled whatshits!
whateve,
went for math laughing till i felt like i was going to implode.
HOHOHE,
went for english pon half way went to the canteen just chatting with sherryT,Val and JL(((:
poor sherryT,,,
went to AVA room after?
watch the movie secret.
headed for Hubbs.
bought hair dye.
ks,val,jl n i headed to SherryT's house.
*big uber hugs and kisses to sherry for helping me dye my hair*
*big fat hugs and kisses to kahsin helping me wash my hair*
after eating and drying all that headed for HOMEun-sweetHOME.
had THE BESTEST time with em(:
LOVES/
****tomorrow,open house,they all coming over my house!****
Monday flying kite with my going out crew*smilies*
idk anymore,
really i don't.
at least you can't blame me anymore for all the wrong things i "did".
i feel so mad,so disappointed and so damn sad.
is this it?
is this all?
after 2 years of crap we gave each other is this all?
maybe I'll move on.
maybe I'll get a new guy
maybe I'll forget a few parts of you
maybe just maybe...
but 1 thing i won't forget?
the things you taught me
the way you said my name
the way you held my hand
i hope you know....
(I'll always love you,no matter what)